May 2013
9 posts
I’ll never be complete free of you. The illusion of your presence sends lighting under my skin. I haven’t heard from you in a year and seen you in 4. You still summon this spirit of love in me. I am cursed to love you the rest of my days.
“Marry your best friend. I do not say that lightly. Really, truly find the...”
– N (via beatboxgoesthump)
This was you :(
You were wonderful, and I hope you never forget that. I still love you deeply.
I’m remembering a conversation we had some time ago. How if I teased you in bed, you’d just pull me closer. That made me smile, or I thought to, it was dark okay, I dunno, geezy!
Anywho, I hope you’re happy. I can’t say I’m perfect but I can say that I’m okay with missing you, like this.
Sometimes I wish we’d played the charade of being just friends....
April 2013
5 posts
I don’t miss you as much now. My heart moves around a bit between you, and a woman I found after you, but right now, I don’t miss you as much. We both know that as soon as I hear your voice everything changes, but I’m okay, for now. I miss this other woman but, I have a handle on that, and can actually focus on things i need to.
I don’t miss you as much, but I still think...
March 2013
18 posts
You will be the end of me.
Madness. Madness indeed. I got a text, from a number I didn’t recognize, and my heart was about to burst through my chest at the thought of it being you. I realized it wasn’t you. And was calmed down, but it just made me understand how deep it goes. How fundamental it is for me. I’ll never be free of you. You’ll always haunt me. I’m damned.
I miss you so much
That's not why I pray. I pray because I can't help myself.
I pray because I'm helpless. I pray beca...
I pray because the need flows out of me all the time, waking and sleeping.
It doesn't change God. It changes me.
“you make feel like, I’ve been locked out of heaven” I heard this song today, and I realized that those words pretty much summed up everything about you & me. That’s how this feels. In a weird way I’ve connected God with you, and right now you both feel far away, and deep down, a large part of me believes if we did end up together, everything else, in this life...
February 2013
11 posts
I like to think I’m building a pair of wings, like Icarus. With all my studying I hope to be free one day. Though, if I could, I’d give these wings to you. I know you want to go to Rice, and if I could, I’d write you a check for a full ride, with money for room and board, and just enough to hire some help to look after the little ones while you studied.
I wish this were...
I did a lil more looking. It was a pay phone? It coulda been you. I feel like it was. I hope if it was you muster the courage to try again. I miss you so much.
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“If it is right, it happens — The main thing is not to hurry. Nothing good gets...”
– John Steinbeck, Falling in Love: A 1958 Letter (via irandeckard)
“I loved you so much once. I did. More than anything in the whole wide world....”
– Raymond Carver, “Intimacy” (via cavum)
January 2013
31 posts
“It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages.”
– Friedrich Nietzsche (via tpil85kglifter)
I dreamed about you this morning. Such an odd dream. I dreamt about you keeping a bunch of sexy things hidden away, and for some reason I was looking at them, and I wondered, why would they exist if I wasn’t to look at them? Very strange dream. You said dreams mean something, I would you would tell me why I dream of you so.
After you come back, and you face him, you tell him how you feel, there’s a silence. I figure, it’s not so quiet for you, but for me it is placid. I think you try to figure ways to say goodbye, none of which come out right. And then, when everything is in place, you come through the open doors and steal or destroy the things I keep of you. Maybe you think without them, your absence...
“I can bear any pain as long as it has meaning.”
– Haruki Murakami, 1Q84 (via gif)
But does this ache I feel for you have purpose?
